Saturday, June 15, 2013

The Man I use to know

I don't know my real father, he gave me up
But I didn't care because I knew real love.

The man who took care of me since I was just 3
I called him my Dad and he was all I would ever need

He left me pennies when I would visit at work
He would always comfort me whenever I was hurt

He attended every concert, every event, no matter the day
He left me notes for school and knew just what to say

He helped me go down the big yellow slide
He had water gun fights with us all the time

That man I use to know is no longer here
He is just a stranger, no one I hold dear

That man I use to know is just a memory
He is now just a man with no meaning to me

The man who I called my dad who I loved so much
Did nothing at all but break my trust

That man I use to love has gone so far away
That man I would've done anything for, has scarred me in so many ways

That man I thought I knew, turns out I don't know at all.
He is no one I respect, no one that I call

Betrayed, heartbroken and completely beaten down
I have no one to call my dad, no one is around

No one to call on fathers day
No one to buy a gift

No one to say I miss you to
No one to say Thanks for all you did

There is no one I call my father, no one I call my dad
There is no "dad" that I can hug when things are getting bad

The man I loved and trusted... the man I called my dad
Broke my heart, walked away and never has looked back

Sunday, May 12, 2013

New kinda Mothers Day

Mother's Day use to be a hand made card to you from me
Now it just reminds me of what use to be

I use to be your little girl, the one who you would give the world
Blonde hair blue eyed precious as can be
Now it's unclear why exactly you hate me

The things you have done are nothing but cruel
I will never understand why you say what you do

You say I have done nothing but let you down
I can just be thankful that I dont have to have you around

Like poison in a snake you do nothing but cause pain
You have lost your only daughter and it was all in vain

Being a mother myself with two beautiful kids
I cant imagine doing what you did

To say my angels were a mistake
Is something I would never say

To say one of my babies was never meant to be
Is something I wouldn't say to one of my enemies

You are cruel and hateful, no mother of mine
I hope you are full of deep regret all the time

Mothers Day to me is about being a mom
Loving my children and sharing our bond

I appreciate my children and love them to no end
I'm not only their mother, I'am their friend

I will never cause pain in my childrens life
I will always be here to cause no strife

As a mother I promise to do no wrong
And to make my childrens happiness forever prolonged

Mothers Day has a new meaning for me
Of someone I want to never be